Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Can we make being transgender bearable?
I was lying in bed last night trying to fall asleep, and I was thinking about being transgender. I was not feeling the impulse as strong as it can be, and I thought to myself, “This is not too bad, if it would stay this way I could be happy.” That got me thinking even more; what if there was something I could do to keep it that way. Maybe something I could take or a procedure that would take the GID away. So then I thought the question, “If there were something you could take to make being Transgender bearable without transitioning, would you take it?” That would mean giving up any hope of ever being female.
I have thought long and hard about this question many times over the years. In the past I would have said no. I wanted too much to be a girl, and a mother, and even on my bad days when the GID act up and I am overcome by the intense desire and want to be a woman I still would say no. Now when I am not feeling the intense desire pulling at my heart stings, and I have made the decision to remain how my heavenly father intended me to be; I can say yes. I would give anything to feel the peace and contentment about my gender continually as I did last night. And it scares me that at any moment I can be over come by the want and be drawn down beep within the depths of despair, and the feeling that the only way to feel happy and complete is to become a woman.
So I ask the question again, “If there were something you could take to make being Transgender bearable without transitioning, would you take it?”